I believe in love at first sight. I can't honestly say it's real, but I believe nonetheless. Maybe I just want it to be real, so I let myself believe.
Am I a romantic? Yes, but I'm no fool. I know that love doesn't just "happen." It's the sort of thing that sneaks up on you, having quietly grown over time. Let's say you found someone special and you've been seeing that person for a while. One day, you're walking together, holding hands, and suddenly you feel a wave of emotion flow through you beginning at the point where your fingers are intertwined.
You think a thought which has no words. Feeling overwhelmed, you stop walking.
You look deep into that person's eyes and see something you haven't seen before, except that you realize it's been there all along. You feel it and you know it. And the moment is pure magic.
We all want that, don't we?
If only we could start from that point. If only two strangers could meet, and look into each other's eyes knowing that sort of magic is there.
I realize it doesn't work that way. Love isn't an arrow from Cupid. It's a photo album with pages and pages of memories shared. Love is a look you've seen a million times but want to see a trillion more. Love is a look that says you're home.
Love is a home.
It occurred to me that 'home' isn't just an address the day I arrived in Portland back in the summer of 2002. Instantly, I knew there was something special about this nutty place. The longer I lived here, the more I felt like I belonged here. With time grows appreciation. Even devotion. Portland is home.
I think of love in similar terms. At first, you notice the basics. A cute smile, a touch that soothes, the way you just feel good when you're together. But over time, you come to realize there's so much more. Before you know it, you've got photos and memories, and a look you know you'll never get enough of.
Each of those things takes time, and any length of time has a starting point. A first sight.
...but is that love? ...that moment when two strangers come together and, for whatever reason, realize they don't want to be strangers anymore? ...is it really love at first sight? Honestly, I can't say. I only know that it's magic.
The way I see it, the odds of finding such magic are slim, but that's fine. It's kind of like playing the lottery. The odds are slim if you try but they're zero if you don't.
Psssssttt. I am one of those people that just falls in love with anything and everything! BUT, but... bumping into love is another thing. I have never been in love until 2 years ago. He is witty, crazy (drives me crazy), brilliant (in his own right) and well...I wouldn't want it any other way. Its taken me a long time and it still will take forever but I truly feel deep down inside, love. And a love that loves me. You'll find it. It's out there. Just keep bumping into people. hehe.::::: | November 20, 2008 11:03 AM