Jalpuna

March 8th

I wake to find it's another dark sky, dark coffee morning. I open the blinds. I grind the beans. I dive right in.

And I am happy.

I'm happy because today is March 8th even though I've seen many a miserably March 8th. But I will not be miserable. Not today. Let the sky be gray, let the rain pour down. This is my day and I'll take it as it comes.

Some see the rain as an annoyance, but I see a city being made clean. I see our valley being watered. I see life.

Today's date is significant because March 8th is the day my father killed himself when I was an eleven year old boy. You're welcome to read about that here, and here.

I used to become moody every year through the first half of March, but an interesting thing happened two years ago. It was two years ago today, in fact.

I made this day my own.

It was two years ago today that I registered the domain name Jalpuna.com and launched this site. The first post is mistakenly dated March 7th... and last year, I wrote about the site's birthday as being on the 7th... but I realized the error this week as my domain name renewal approached. Back in 2004, I purchased the name jalpuna.com for two years, and as those two years ended, I wanted to make sure the name was still paid for.

That's when I spotted this...

In 2004, I was doing what I used to do every year during March... I was desperately trying to ignore the date completely. I used to search for things to occupy my time each March so I wouldn't think about the past. I'd dive into hobbies, projects, etc.

That's why I'm not surprised that, while doing my best to completely ignore the date, I ended up launching Jalpuna on the same date I was trying so hard to forget.

It's a coincidence that isn't so coincidental. And it's since become a happy accident.

I can honestly say the experience of blogging for the last two years has been phenomenal. I've shared so many of my stories and shined light on so many of my demons. And, in the light, I was able to see them for what they really are.

My demons are the line between the situation I was born into and the life I choose to lead. Some people see that line as a barrier. I see it as a starting point. I crossed that line a long, long time ago. And, for me, there's no going back.

Today is now My day.

As March 8th approached this year, rather than feeling sad about the past, I found myself thinking about things I've written about this past year.

During these past 365 days, I had love, and lost it. I've been humbled, and I've been angered. I've laughed at my own mistakes, and laughed at just about everything else too.

I feel enriched by these past 365 days; one year older, sure, but I'm wiser for the wear. Maybe even happier too.

Definitely happier.

Happy birthday dear blog! And a big thank you to you - yes YOU - whoever you are. Thank you for dropping by and following along.

::::: | Wednesday, Mar 08 2006 at 12:00 AM
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Comments:


Paula said:

Hi Rob!
Happy birthday to you and your blog!
Found you via your entry in the contest on AT (wonderful place by the way - I adore your bed, what diva wouldn't).
Love your writing style and tell your friend I am so with her on the Republican male issue.
Well, this is my first time to post on a blog but I have added jalpuna to my favorites and I will be back.
Blessings,
Paula in Texas (yes, I am one of the few remaining liberals they haven't chased away)

::::: | March 8, 2006 4:53 AM


Me! said:

Today is just the blog's birthday. Mine's a May day.

:)

::::: | March 8, 2006 8:26 AM


Jessica said:

Rob,

I have been reading your posts for the past two years. I find your humor and strength so encouraging.
Thank you for sharing your wonderful words and inspiring life with us.

::::: | March 8, 2006 9:15 AM


J said:

I think it's amazing that you are not haunted by your past considering what you have lived through. So many people hold onto those demons. And not only have you let them go, you are one of the most positive, happy, and optimistic
people i know. :)

oh and ..March 8th is also International Women's Day.

::::: | March 8, 2006 9:29 AM


Wende said:

Happy Birthday!

Although, I prefer to think of them as anniversaries. ;)

::::: | March 8, 2006 3:33 PM


Me! said:

I tried saying Happy Anniversary to it last year.

My blog replied "WTF? We ain' married bitch!"

It kind of had a point - though it could have been a lot friendlier when making it.

(-shrugs-)

::::: | March 8, 2006 4:33 PM


Tonya said:

Rob,

I have enjoyed checking in with you every now and then to see how you and your cats are doing. I've laughed with you and cried at times, but always been cheered by something on your blog when I have had a bad day. Congratulations on your blog's birthday and I look forward to more of your life and humor.

::::: | March 10, 2006 10:22 PM


Jamie said:

Rob,

It's no longer March 8, but a belated happy birthday to the blog. Found your site through AT and, like other readers, have been alternately laughing and profound-sighing at your writing. Thanks for sharing.

::::: | March 14, 2006 7:39 PM




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