This Is The Sound Of Settling

I've been in love before. I know the feeling so well... the connection within which two people share a bond that can't really be put into words. Touch becomes lightening. A look becomes a blanket that wraps around to warm you on the coldest day.

These days, I'm better at finding friends than finding love. Friends are good to have of course, but still - the heart wants what the heart wants, but alas - love eludes me.

Every now and then I'll meet someone new, and there's an instant "WOW!" I met a woman in February and we had a spectacular evening. It couldn't have been more sweet... but nothing became of it because she had some ex from years ago who'd hurt her [emotionally] causing her to think herself into a corner & then back away. Oh, she didn't explain it that way of course - but the truth is what it is, and the post-great-date-panic-&-back-away is exactly what she did.

I'd bought her a flower for our next date - a date that didn't occur... so I kept it. I put it on my table as a sort of simple centerpiece, and really liked seeing it there. The flower added another touch of color to my place - so I've been buying a single flower for my vase every since.

I have a complete lack of knowledge regarding flowers that rivals my complete lack of knowledge regarding plants.


This past Monday it was time again to buy a new flower... they only last so long y'know. I ended up buying whatever the hell this thing is. On Tuesday it grew the most amazing pink petals [hey - stop it! I swear to god I'm straight]. Then I woke up Friday morning and they were lying on the table.

"What the fuck happened to YOU?" I asked - but the flower just shrugged.

I guess my luck with flowers matches my luck with women these days. Ahhh well. Then again, I can just buy a new flower.


If only my love life were so simple!

[ok, I don't really mean that quite the way it sounds]

::::: | Saturday, May 08 2004 at 12:48 PM
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JB said:

See, now that really surprises me. You're the one who told me how to fall in love. That when I wanted it to happen, it would. I'm glad you're buying yourself a flower now and again. Give my love to the Boys.

::::: | May 9, 2004 2:24 PM

Me! said:

I wonder what my advice was back then...? I usually say people need to be open to love, otherwise they will never find it.


P.S. The Boys say thanks!


::::: | May 9, 2004 6:27 PM

Me! said:

By the way - congrats on the marriage. How long did it take you to find your special someone after we had that conversation? [grin]

::::: | May 9, 2004 10:12 PM

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